Motives are hard to judge sometimes. I often wonder about mine. I think I am more concerned about my own glory than the cause I am working for. I remind myself of my kids who make such a big deal of getting the credit for whatever little they may have done to keep the house respectable.
Today I was a little annoyed that some organizations in this country had actually left us out in their pursuit of freedom for Burma.(You see, I feel entitled to this job myself.) And not only that, they had made their opinions public and used photos that my husband had taken. And did they credit him? No. And not only that, they made suggestions to the government that Partners had made an eternity ago. But was that even an issue? No.
So I was sulking by my desk feeling robbed for some fame mostly, and influence in the inner circles. I doubt that if our name (Partners) had been mentioned more and my husband’s name had been on the photo freedom would have come to Burma any sooner. I was more concerned about being left out than I was about the actual cause. I even wrote a couple of emails to set things straight.
My friend, Linda, gently reminded me that my job is not to go out looking for fame and credit and headlines in the news. My job is to do what I am supposed to do and to let God deal with the rest. Let him deal with the people who make mistakes. Let him deal with the people who perhaps act immature. Let him deal with the rest of the stuff. I
I thought that was true and felt convicted. I let my heart settle with the verse that Linda reminded me of Romans 8:28 “And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him,who have been called according to his purpose.”
I so easily judge others and their motives, and then I find myself committing the exact same mistake myself, and feel justified in doing so. Perhaps I should give little more grace to others when they make the same mistakes I do, because I know that I will do the same mistakes myself. If you know what I mean.
Tomorrow will start with new opportunities to do what is right. And that will be my goal. Do what is right. Even if it means nobody will notice and nobody will even care. But it is about being faithful. Faithful.